Conversations: ESQXR

Suicide Capital has been a constant source of impeccable production over the last year. Esqxr, one of the founding members, sits down with Grounders to talk about the collective and life.



How would you describe Suicide Capital?

It’s me and three other members. At this time I would call it a collection of creatives. Myself, and my partner Zain, we both rap. Another friend, Logic, he’s our producer slash engineer. And we have another traditional artist, Gunna, who puts together our mood boards, photoshoots, and video stuff. It started out with just me and those two music guys and then I added a fourth member to help us expand on the visual aspect.

Suicide Capital is a collection of creatives based out of Mississauga and Toronto. We’ve all known each other a couple of years so we are all friends.


Is there an ideology behind what you put out?

In terms of an ideology, our thing is we just want to produce dope content. On a basic level, as long as it is thought provoking, something that has depth. A lot of dope interesting content, good music, good photography, good videos, something that makes you stop and think.


How do you make something that has depth?

You definitely take your time with it. Put a lot of thought into it, think about what emotion you want it to be. When we did the COM.RAD photoset, it was inspired by a conversation between Zain and I about things we had both gone through where we had helped each other out. We decided to expand on that. We try to put a lot of thought into everything we do and make sure it comes from something honest. A lot of the music we are making write now are about events that are very recent.


Is Eastern Promises your first musical project?

Eastern Promises is my … eighth?


Where are all the others?!

They are in various places on the internet. Most of my discography is on Bandcamp. Eastern Promises is the second album that I produced entirely. The first was EVE: The B Sides. Eastern Promises was inspired by the girl I was dating at the time. I was living outside of the GTA and I visited my friends one day and I met her. I always had to go back but I would tell her that I would move back and we would be together soon. I was getting a job and we were together for a year, that was the premise of the album.


Is she the girl on the cover?

Yeah, her voices are the interludes and stuff.


Birch Trees and Caesars?

Me, Zain, and Logic all went to the same university in Waterloo. We would always make songs and then we thought “lets just make an album”. So Zain used to live in this place we called the Whitehouse and it was across from this club called Caesars and there were literally birch trees in front of the club. We were sitting at his house high and I looked out the window and said the album name.

That album, majority of it, was produced by Logic and one of the songs by myself. We were just having fun, it wasn’t really a conceptual piece. It was the first album that Zain was on and it was a really special project for the both of us.


Did you see Zain grow through the process?

Definitely. It was cool since I had a bit of experience and could coach him on some things. And then we produced that body of work and a lot of people fuck with it.


Do you have any new projects?

We are working on our next album it’s called Havana. I was hoping to release it in November but we just had a studio session and it looks like December. But it’s really really good and we are talking to a bunch of people to market it properly. It’s going to be a big one.


Do you plan to make music or Suicide Capital your career?

Suicide Capital is an entity. I want it to become an organization like the Group of 7. I just want it to be a renowned, creative collective. After this album my plan was to go to Amsterdam and work on an album with my friend. A lot of my old music was very sensual and I want to get back to that. As far as producing music as a career I am moving away from that and toward podcasts.

I have a really dope podcast opportunity coming up and it’s looking very good. It is going to be around pop-culture, fashion, stuff like that.


Do you ever feel weird hearing recordings of yourself talking?

Initially, but you get used to it. I’ve been a rapper forever so I know exactly what I sound like. It’s always interesting seeing new people record themselves because they always go “OMG I sound so different!”


What about music videos?

Music video … Me and Zain put out one called Yoko Ono. That is our first video. The second one Ethiopian Jawns is coming out soon. It’s more of a short film rather than a music video. It’s a very in depth project that I’ve been working on for a while. I was trying to do a Solange thing with the look book and the album and videos. It’s basically a set of murals depicting blackness. Creativity, strength, diversity, colours, just different things. I’m shooting six different scenes and putting them into one music video.


Who is Soul Melody Records?

It is the name of the label we are under. Our manager, Kobe, handles a couple of other artists too. We joined very recently. We are still trying to get little certifications. My thing is I just want to worry about music and Kobe can deal with the other stuff.


Change of topic: Every time the majority of society feels unhappy there is a revolution. I feel that a revolution will happen in the Millennials’ lifetime. What would you want to come out of such a revolution?

My thing is, a revolution is always a good thing if the outcome is productive. If there is a revolution a lot of people will have to die. So there will have to be a lot of loss of life. Revolution is no joke. With all the stuff that’s been going on in the US with all the shootings and stuff… there is a certain tension in the air. And it hasn’t been seen before, it has, but now everything is recorded so it’s being seen on a global scale. So the question is if something happened would we progress?


So what would make a revolution worthwhile?

A specific answer would be police-prison reform in the US.


Is that just the US or everywhere?

Everywhere, but specifically the US. I watched the documentary 13th and it talks about why people were incarcerated in the 70s and 80s. And it’s just one thing, there is so much shit. There is a systemic thing to put a certain demographic in jail.


Do you think something like that would happen?

Honestly no, I’m such a pessimist and I think capitalism is king, so no. This has been happening forever which is kind of sad. It’s part of the human condition. We can talk and talk and people can protest and things will get better. But change would have to happen on such a drastic level for everything to be good. So I don’t think it will happen.


So do you like capitalism?

No, no I said “capitalism is king.” I don’t like capitalism because it’s the cause for all the world’s problems.  By “capitalism is king” I meant there is no way the status quo will change. At the end of the day
everything is about the bottom dollar and that’s why nothing changes.


Any last thoughts?

I found there’s been a recent surge in the level of creativity I’ve seen in youthful people of colour. I started noticing it when Solange’s two videos came out and I just want to say this is really the age of being a creative. Anybody out there who wants to do it should just do it. There is no transition between not doing something and doing something. There’s no trying. If you want to make music just do it, make art. Just do – do – do. 


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